Only Human.

Hi, My name is Kirsty & I have been a Weight Watchers member since January 2nd, 2007. In my time on the program I gave away a total of 60lbs, and have been a lifetime member, at goal for over 2 years. I’ve been lucky enough to work for Weight Watchers since September of 2009.

Yup, that’s what I tell everyone when I stand up in front of a meeting and introduce myself.

It sounds so factual, and so unquestionable. But the thing is, Weight Watchers leaders are Weight Watchers members, and we struggle too.

I struggle. I am struggling.

Life gets hectic. Life gets busy. Life can appear to get out of control.

The thing is, life isn’t out of control, I’ve just lost control.

I am letting my sweet tooth control me.

In recent weeks, I have found myself driving out of my way, across town, on my day off, to go to a cute little cupcakery I recently discovered. And when I get there, I can’t decide between the two flavours that are tempting me, so I get them both.  The French Kiss. Chocolate Cupcake with Mocha Icing, and it comes with a chocolate covered coffee bean on top… it’s heaven.   Or how about the French Vanilla, a delicious, classic, vanilla cupcake with vanilla icing. Then I eat them in the car, because no one can see me in the car, right??

Cake is my weakness, and the scale has been showing this.  Well, actually, it didn’t show it at first. I got away with it for a couple of weeks. Sneaking a cup cake in here and there didn’t show on the scale, but the last two weeks, I have not been so lucky!

Here’s the thing… why, after all this time at goal am I reverting back to bad behaviours?

Well, like I said… I’m only human and I have stresses that cause me to turn to food for comfort. But I know better, so this is it. I am done with the cupcakes!!!

I, Kirsty Sheldon, do solemnly swear that as of today,  Wednesday, May 26th, 2010, I am giving up cupcakes until I have my emotional eating back in control! In fact… I am going to give up cake in general until my birthday in November.  That’s better, that’s a goal, with a timeline, and it is measurable!

So, how am I going to do this??? Well, yesterday, I wrote an email to a friend, and told her that I am struggling, and that I need help. I asked her not to tempt me with sweet treats when we visit, because I can’t seem to control myself around sweet treats right now. And now, this is my email to you, my email to all my twitter folks, and my fellow Weight Watchers. I am asking for your support, and help, and encouragement to get me through this struggle, so I can get back on the wagon, get back on track, and take control of my emotional eating!

Yes folks, Weight Watchers leaders are human, we struggle and we have to ask for help!

“I’m only human, Of flesh and blood I’m made, Human, Born to make mistakes”